Just Call it a Bad Day

This morning, I woke up feeling unlike myself- pretty sad in fact. I just cry for no reason.

I was able to pull myself together in order to get Damon to work and get myself to a much needed chiropractic appointment. The chiropractic appointment went just fine, but it cost me $40 I did not expect to have to pay. My insurance coverage says "covered." It does not say "including applicapble copay," it just says covered. I did not want to throw a fit because we can always get reimbursed... But there went the money I was going to spend on groceries to get us through until Tuesday.

We have a little bit of money Damon got from the government (from an abandonded fund). I will not let us deposit it until we know what we are going to do with it. If we put it in there, the money will just be spent on little things (like my current addiction to QT taquitos). I know that we will be ok, and I know that we are still recovering from the $721.00 RatCat repair... But it has me feeling pretty down right now.

As I was walking to our back door (because I broke the jamb on the front door and now it does not close correctly) I noticed a VERY LARGE gap in our stucco. Our house is continuing to settle. When we bought it, they told us it had only settled 1 inch in the 7 years they lived here. Well, in the 2 years we have lived here, it has sunk quite a bit. I am kind of overwhelmed by the idea of mudjacking or steel pier repair. In fact, I am overwhelmed in general...

My car (affectionately known as Stan) has an oil leak and I think the alternator is ca-put. I don't know if it is even worth messing with, I have not driven him in months. Damon and I have been carpooling (which has probably saved us a bunch on gas, and is better for the enviornment anyways). But as the birth of our baby gets closer- the idea of having only one functional car makes me nervous- Panicky even. The way I have things set up we should be able to pay off our most major debts before embarking on getting a new car.

This is still feasible, heck, probable- but the timeline may be a little skewed. I was thinking we could wait until I was in my 9th month (about 38 weeks) before buying a newer car, but upon reconsideration- that is looking like a "negative." We are going to have to look earlier. So- here is hoping that we can get my VW Van sold, and that I can be a diligent in paying things off.

It is just hard being a grown up sometimes. Most days, I do not mind dealing with our finances, in fact- I often find it invigorating to see how creative I can be. But on days like today when my hormones are out of whack and I am home alone, I get sad.

The good news is, I can catch up on sleep and laundry today- which will make my entire week MUCH better.