This week has been the most challenging and most rewarding thus far. You have gained quite a bit of neck control and you are becoming more aware of your surroundings- I love spending time watching you take in everything; it gives me promise for the future... Everything will be magical for you- and for us by-proxy. What a wonderful gift.
The challenge (for me) this week has been sleep and exhaustion. 3 weeks of a wacky sleep schedule is starting to wear on me and at 6am, I am not a very fun person. Hopefully you won't remember much about my grumpiness. It is not aimed at you- You are still very new to this world!!! When I do get frustrated, please forgive me.
Thankfully my frustrations are quickly mended when I take you into my arms. I have really started to enjoy our time together while nursing. You can be wailing at the top of your lungs, while your daddy is holding you and speaking for you...
Often he says, "Mommy- its time to eat," in this sweet sing-song. But as soon as I take you into my arms, you stop (at least for a moment). You know who I am now- You may know me as the milk-wagon, but it gives me an incredible sense of self-worth... Knowing that I can comfort you just by holding you in my arms.
2am has become one of my favorite times of the day. I am usually still fairly functional and you are normally winding down from your "day." (night for you is from about 2am until 11am) It is in this quiet that I feel most connected to you. You curl up against my chest and listen to my heartbeat, and I wrap my arms around you as tightly as I can. You snuggle in and make your sweet squeaks, and I nuzzle your soft copper hair with my cheek. In the stillness I shed tears of happiness and thank you for being part of our family. We are unendingly blessed.
Love,
Mamma
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