On Having a Baby

End result was worth the pain and the wait. Mina is gorgeous, even tempered, and the light of our lives.

But, birth was nothing like I had planned.

Cervadil (a prostaglandin insert for the va-jay-jay) caused me a lot of pain. I was up most of the night because of it.

Pitocin is strong juju- My body had little ability to cope with the freight train- I was not allowed to get out of bed at all. No walking, squatting, warm baths, just concentration and my mantra "Come on out into the sunshine Mina." By 3-4 centimeters, I was unable to concentrate the pain away.

Nubain is my new best friend- It "takes the edge off" and that is EXACTLY what it does. I could still feel my contractions, but they were tolerable from my very fuzzy, relaxed state of mind. However, because of the effects it can have on a baby, this is still an intervention.

Epidural, I am still on the fence about. It really DID take most of my pain away and for that I am thankful, but getting it in was not fun and I am still feeling sore at my injection site. I hope that my chiropractor can fix that.

C-Section, well, what can I say? I could have labored another 8 hours only to find my kid was not moving out of my cervical region. During those last couple of hours I could feel her head hitting my cervix and pelvis- even through the epidural. I was feeling very guilty about the pain she was probably experiencing and I felt secure in my decision (with the doctor) to have this baby by Cesarean.

Overall? I am happy my daughter is here. I am sad I needed to have all of this medical intervention, but I am thankful that it was there for me. Had I been able to get up and walk around, I may have been able to hold off on the interventions, but I may not have been able to go without them completely.

More to come later-

As a side note, hormones are ALL OVER the place right now. I am off to the shower for a cry... For no good reason.