Second pregnancy has been different from the first- in some ways I did not expect. In general, I am MUCH.MORE.TIRED than I remember. Of course, there are those evil hormones that make you forget exactly how you felt in the first place- so I could be delusional... Or it could be that I spend a good part of my day chasing around a toddler.
In the first pregnancy, I felt GORGEOUS. Like I should a movie star with my big tight belly, big round boobies, and crazy dark hair. My skin glowed, and I did not get tons of swelling.
This time around, I feel a bit more like a walrus. My facial skin has become hyper-sensitive and in constantly broken out in a rash. Though my belly is big and my boobies are too, I just don't feel as cute. Perhaps that will come in time... maybe I am just not big enough yet... Though I am much bigger than I remember being last time at this point. I am seriously considering finding some money in my budget to buy some new bras and underwear, because I suspect that is part of the reason I feel so blah. It is hard to feel cute when you have holes in all of your panties, and all of your bras look like they are not fit to hold up a couple of acorns- let alone my giant melons...
Cravings? With Mina, I could not get enough spicy food and salty things- especially salt and vinegar chips... And though those things still hold much sway, I would much rather eat sugar. Rainbow Sherbet, gummi bears, skittles- those are the unhealthy things I love most. However, with both pregnancies I have loved grapes and cheese and bread. I need to stock up on more grapes ASAP
NAMES- This is the biggest surprise. We went back and forth on names a bit but by this time with Mina, I am pretty sure we had settled and had given our family hints about her name. Before I was pregnant with #2, I had envisioned a girl's name and I was positive that it was the one we were going to use if we had a girl. NOW I CAN'T SEEM TO DECIDE. It has to "go" with Mina, and it has to be cool on its own. It can't be more or less cool/nerdy/sweet/etc than Mina... And, as a very dear friend mentioned, this is my last chance to name a child. IE- I don't get to use any of the other names I love so much on future children because we are done at 2.
Impatience- I am terribly impatient to meet this baby and get on with our life as it is going to be. With Mina, I was scared of not having her in my belly, wanting to protect her and keep her safe. With this baby, I am thankful that time seems to be flying by because I can't wait to hold her in my arms and watch her grow as I watch Mina grow.
In general I am doing my best to enjoy this time- allowing myself to eat some of those things I crave, napping as much as I can, and pampering my belly to a nightly dose of lotion, but it does feel much more fleeting this time around. And I know if I do not savor the kicks and wiggles now, I will miss them forever.
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