Up Down Up Down

Wednesday, I thought I was cured.

Thursday was down, but decided to wait on taking anti-depressants until I am "sure" this is not just hormones.

Yesterday sad about Damon going back to work.

Today, have taken 2 half doses of ativan. I am afraid my depression is worsening. And the ativan did stop the panic attack that was coming did not pull me out of my slide toward sadness.

I got less sleep last night and I know for me that exacerbates feelings of depression- which leads to anxiety about not sleeping- blah blah blah.

Jovie will be 4 weeks old on Wednesday. I am kind of distraught to feel that half of my time with her has been spent fighting with anxiety and depression. I hope that the farther away we get from this time, the more wonderful things I will remember and the more less savory moments I will forget.