Depression and anxiety have been my constant companions for a while now. Even on medication, I have managed to stall out in my treatment. I am overwhelmed, much more often than i would like. So, I have a new education to try...
And I feel like it is time to wean Jovie, cold turkey. She is a clever little fox and forceful. My most recent attempts at cutting back her nursing time have not gone as I had planned.
But now i will be taking more medication (three different ones for the time being) and even if each separately is "ok" for nursing, I feel like the totality of them at same time is more damning. A sum of more than its parts.
So I am letting the sadness wash over me. My last baby, letting go of her last baby-thing. Hurts my heart a little, or a lot,,, things change, time rolls on. Time to leave this part behind. But dammit if i do not feel like part of my heart is being left behind,
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Oh Lauren. Love you woman. Sometimes when I have a horrible EE episode I wonder why the hell I'm still nursing. I've suffered for 20 years with it now and finally know there's a treatment (possibly cure within 6 months). The treatment for it is decidedly NOT milk friendly. Yet we're still nursing. I'm hesitant to give it up, knowing he's my one and only. And there are still moments I cherish and that warm my heart and soul.
I understand your sadness, and the reasons for weaning too. You've done a great job with those girls. Remember that. <3
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