Wednesday, September 13, 2006

Sesame Seed

I had THE CRAZIEST dream!!! I dreamt that the alarm went off and Damon went downstairs and I thought he forgot about me- so I went into our bedroom and it looked different, redesigned and a little bigger. I went back to the spare bedroom and it was TOTALLY DIFFERENT- and it led to more rooms… I sunk to the floor and I called Damon and the top of my lungs and told him that I was having a “living dream” and I needed him towake me out of it. I told him the room I was in, explain some of the details (like wood molding and paneling- neither of which we have in there) and he just nodded like I had lost my mind. Very interesting.

Today, the little one is the size of a sesame seed. I had an appetite this morning, but that may have had something to do with being up since about 3 am. I am not certain what my problem is, but I got up to do my "middle of the night" potty run and I could not fall back asleep. So I watched some tv, and tried to go back to sleep- did not work. I ended up crashing in the guest room because I did not want to wake Damon... Hence the weird dream above.

This morning I slipped on some mud and thought I was going to fall and it scared me very badly. It is amazing how fast my little brain synapses went- they went straight to "SAVE THE BABY!!!" I managed not to fall, I spilled my drink all over myself... and it really shook me internally.

It is amazing how quickly your entire life starts to revolve around caring for the little one that is in growing inside. Sesame Seed is on my mind- ALOT. Like I said in an earlier post- I am trying not to become attached, but there are many things I wonder about.

More later...

LATER- Well, the "not hungries" are back again. Damn. I wonder if the sleep issues messed with my stomach- oh well. It is lunch time, and I think I am going to start out with my fruit. It seems to be the easiest thing to get down when my stomach is protesting. Off to try.

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