Critical Mass?

As the Belly Stretches, things move about- the ribs ache. Evening finds me sitting upright, arms folded above my head, attempting to bring in oxygen and calm the slow burn in my intercostals. If I could spend my entire day with my arms above my head, I probably would! Eventually, that may be my only means for survival.

Post-lunch finds me sleepy. Today I am daydreaming about a cold coca-cola, it is one of my occasional treats and I had one yesterday... So, hopefully we can survive without another one today.

Hunger continues to increase at an alarming rate. Often while still in bed, I plan my day's eating- oatmeal for breakfast, fruit and cheese for snack, sandwich or leftovers for lunch, and more fruit for another snack, with dinner left up to Damon. I try to plan something healthful and filling... But within 30 minutes of rising out of bed I become ravenous, and slightly cranky. I find myself drawn to many "evil" foods... Foods that taste great but have little nutritional value. Foods like QT taquitos, and sausage breakfast sandwiches. Most often I want something sturdy, savory, and slightly spicy. I have not figured out how to avert this crisis. Even if I attempt to eat something more healthful (like a whole wheat bagel or oatmeal) my body complains- or is it my mind?

I can't quite wrap my brain around this "craving" stuff. I can't imagine that my body is "craving" a sausage biscuit and orange juice because it is missing nutrients. Even if I was not eating much, I have plenty of extra stored away in my adipose tissue. No, these flashes of "cravings" are not logical. There is no physical reason why, at this very moment I would like to sip a coca cola and devour a whopper. So what does this phenomenon based on? Hormonal swings? Secret longings that I have ignored for the last 13 years? A keen ability to be influenced by media and advertising? I have no idea.

Damon tells me to enjoy it, and I do my best- but there is a lot guilt in eating what I want, when I want. I am trying to counter by filling my regular/non-craving filled meals with vegetables and fruits. I try to snack on low fat dairy and fruits... But somedays, I just don't wanna... ESPECIALLY vegetables. (lately I have been sneaking veggies in by chugging low sodium v8)

Hell, I would trade a huge plate of green beans for a small biscuit or a slice of pizza. This was always a tendency of mine (carbs and fats over all other foods). If I could eat whatever I wanted all the time, I would eat good bread, good cheese, fruit, and the occasional piece of carrot cake. I have yet to find those to be key ingredients to a healthy lifestyle.

(Way to stay on topic, me!)

Time for my afternoon stretch and walk... Off to confuse passers-by with my arms over head maneuver.