Pink Slip

Today, I got laid off. Merry fucking Christmas.

I imagine that it was inevitable, and I am trying to look at this positively. I did not like my job and was unhappy there. I often felt like a scapegoat and a "bad guy" for bringing up all of the stuff that was falling behind.

I suppose this is the general kick in the butt I needed to get a new job. Though I honestly had hoped that I could stay there until I had this baby. Yeah- the one that is due in about 4 months... That baby.

Overall, I think Ia m just in shock. I knew things were bad, but I never thought that my measly paycheck in addition to the skills I have that no one else has would keep me safe. But, it did not.

Last I checked, I cannot read my work email from home anymore. So I guess that means I am just done.

I was given "2 weeks" and have been told that I can choose not to come back, and that he would understand. I was planning to go back for one day after my Holiday vacation. That is still my plan, though now that my email password does not work, I feel a bit unwelcome. Its really weird.

This whole thing is weird. I have already applied for a job, and will continue to do so. I will also go about researching unemployment, but I am unsure if that is even an option as I currently work part-time...

Fun times. I am doing my best not to let it ruin my vacation, but I when things get quiet, my brain goes back to conference table, and the things I wish I had said and asked- wishing I had been more angry instead of just sitting there sobbing.

Life goes on.