GAH THIS IS IRRITATING!!!

Did not sleep great last night, but I am awake for now. I would love to take a nap, but I am scared to sleep again. What the hell???

I feel like I am still holding off some panic. I don't understand this. I have NO REASON to panic right now.

I did a little exercise to see if it would help and I felt ok doing it, but my body is not quite ready for big time exercise. I think I did something like 5 minutes. I know that exercise can help both depression and anxiety so I hope to work toward getting more exercise as I can.

I have a call into a therapist, I am hoping she is on my insurance. I don't think I can handle this by myself.

I am not panicing right now, but I can feel my body trying to tip the scales that way- It pisses me off. I need to be able to ignore it. I am 2 weeks out from my birth today- why has this stuff not stopped?

I hope to not have to take medication today- but if I have to, I will.