Sick Mamma, Healthy Baby

At least I hope that is true; I am one sick mamma. My "sickness" is getting worse- it has gone from afternoon/evenings to morning, afternoon, and evening. Getting to sleep is hard too. My body is so alien to me right now. I hope that soon I will stop whining. I know Damon is is very concerned and it is wearing on him too.

Yesterday, while feeling the weight of pregnancy firmly on my low back and my gag reflex, Damon cheered me up with a tummy puppet moment. I said to Damon "why is baby making me so sick?" To which 'the baby' answered, "I'm sorry you do not feel well mommy, but I am not making you sick." And I asked if it was not the baby making me sick, who was it? 'The baby' retorted "Jesus, he goes to my church." Uhhh, what church could baby be going to? "First Uteritarian Universalist." Maybe that is not so funny to people reading this, but it made me laugh, and I was in desperate need of laughter.

I weighed myself this morning in case my midwife wants to see me today (I am having some back pain) and I have LOST weight. Last I knew, I had gained a couple of pounds- but since then I have lost 6 pounds (4 since my last official visit to the midwife). I am not overly concerned about it because I have read that if I do not gain now, I will later... But it was a little bit of a shock. If I keep losing on into the 2nd trimester, THEN we can get nervous. And of course weight fluctuates so much, I am trying not to worry. Maybe those pounds I gained earlier were simply water- I imagine once this sick stuff is over with, I will be able to go back to eating normally and we will get back on track.

That is enough whining for one morning... Really things are going well- Baby must be growing strong! And soon we will be able to hear the heartbeat!!! HURRAY.

I just got the sweetest email from my mom, it said "I will always be your Momma – even if you are one yourself." That is really comforting. Now- if she could only make me my favorite childhood meals and teleport them to my house... That may be technology worth creating!