This one has nothing to do with Mina and everything to do with my bruised ego.
Once a year at my job we enter a Design Contest where we are given a material from the trade- be it wallcovering, tile, carpet, upholstery, etc.
This is the one time a year where I feel like a real member of the team. Finally I have some pseudo-expertise to lend! HURRAY!!! I get to be creative!!!
However, things are different this time around. We have a lot of options and ideas- We have so many we were having trouble narrowing it down... But we were working our way towards an end.
Until, Captain Killjoy decided to enter the discussion. Captain Killjoy knows nothing about sewing or clothing construction and knows everything about masculine design and the "big picture."
In this case, the masculine design and rigid direction pointing is not helpful. Fabric design is very organic, especially considering the type of materials we have to use. The design changes moment to moment under our fingertips.
So after a somewhat irritating meeting earlier this afternoon where I had to gently explain the organic matter of this kind of design, I was a bit bruised, but none-the-less determined to be part of the process and design.
This project needed a leader and I was ready to step into that role.
No longer. Just moments ago, my feelings were hurt greatly (unintended I am sure). I was with most of my team and we were trying to think of ways to accentuate our design. I came up with something pretty punk, just an idea, but one I felt the clothing design culture would appreciate. A really interesting way of using our product. Quickly shot down. I am ok with some critism... But when I feel like nothing I suggest is taken into account, I want to shut down.
Looks like I need to find another outlet for my creativity.
Sour Grapes anyone?
1 comment:
That stinks! I hope you don't let yourself be totally squelched, especially on something you look so forward to during the year. But I can sympathize with hitting the point where you don't want to fight to feel wanted.
I love you and am sure that your idea was fantabulous.
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