You accidentally burn your tummy on the stove. This is what I did for fun at lunch today. It was completely accidental and thankfully the stove had been off for a bit, but the metal guards on our gas stovetop get a bit warm while in use. I was grabbing a pot of (cooling) green beans and bumped my belly right on a grate. Luckily it was just a quick clumsy stumble as there is no lasting damage. Huzzah.
In other news, it hit me today (again?) that we are ACTUALLY having another baby. That in 10 + weeks Mina will have a little sister. In that in a few short, weeks-days-hours, our family will be "complete."
Up until this point I think I have regarded this pregnancy with some distance. I have done my best to be emotionally involved in the health and growth of my little belly kicker, but to some degree I have always been scared of miscarrying or something horrible happening. The possibility of having a successful pregnancy at this point is very high and that gives me peace of mind.
Not until yesterday did I really start to daydream about what this baby will look like- Mina looks so much like her dad, yet acts just like me... Will this child look like me and act like Damon?
I can't wait to hold her in my arms and give her a name (and hope that name is perfect for her). I can't wait to smell her little head- will she smell a little bit like Christmas- as her big sister did?
I still have a lot of fears about the general logistics of being a mother to two. Especially in this economy- and with my past mental health issues. I had such a hard time transitioning back to work- even at 3 days a week. Now I work 2 days a week, but will I feel more like my heart is being ripped from my chest when I am leaving 2 balls of sunshine instead of just one? Or maybe I will cope better because I have had practice?
More time to figure it out. Can't worry too much- For now, I need to practice NOT running my belly into hot things.
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