In the last week or two- the whole family has caught a cold, complete with a rib-crushing cough that is just now starting to back off for me (Damon is not so lucky). Being sick, and pregnant, and taking care of a toddler is EXHAUSTING.
I have not been terribly energetic this pregnancy, in fact, in general I am not a real high energy person BUT these last few days it has gotten much harder to get out of bed, carry Mina up the stairs, just go on a walk-
Yesterday my blood sugars were mega high after breakfast, so I opted for a short walk around the block and I am pretty sure while I was out, my hips dislocated and spread even farther apart. I managed to get a lot of house cleaning and went to bed completely exhausted last night. Today, I just want to lay on the floor and let Mina watch crappy television.
My belly feels ENORMOUS, my hips are growing wider than than the national debt, I don't have nearly the amount of energy I feel is necessary to be the best mom to Mina.
I am not a diminutive woman, I have never been small- but I have always been strong. Feeling my strength dissipating is disturbing. I feel like it should be no trouble to carry my toddler up the stairs. When she is feeling sweet and clingy, its fine, but when she is being silly or obstinate- Forget about it.
I have already lost so much of "myself" being pregnant- My mind is not my own (thank you hormones), my libido is dead, my body is barely under my own control, and now I am losing my strength. What else is left?
Is this the function of biology? Perhaps mother nature is preparing me for the complete loss of control that will happen in 2 months?
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