Sunday Blues

I am exhausted and a bit sad today.

Wednesday night I felt ok about going to work. having a "break" would be nice. And it was.

It does not feel like a "break" anymore. Now it feels like work. Tomorrow is most probably going to suck as I have to do invoicing AND my boss has procrastinated on something that will require much attention tomorrow. I suppose one of the :good: things that could happen is that I will be able to disappear into the bathroom to pump a couple of times tomorrow. Pumping will be my respite.

I am unsure if it is being tired, work, or what- but I feel kind of depressed. That kind of depressed that makes you feel completely unattractive and makes me want to cry in the shower. I took a walk this morning but it did not help.

The good part about tomorrow is Damon being with Mina. Of course, they will probably spend more time than I would like on the internet... But at least he will get time to really bond with her and perhaps he can offer some insight into her nap schedule (or lack thereof).

This brings about another point. I did not feel the "need" to get Mina into a sleeping schedule until I gave her to Meme. I DO want Mina to get used to a regular bedtime, but I feel like she needs to have scheduled naps as well and I think maybe I am putting too much pressure on us to do this. So today I am following her lead... Letting her sleep when she wants and eat when she wants, just to see where we go with it. So far she has slept more than I expected- lets hope that is not to our detriment tonight. I am unsure I could emotionally handle a hard night tonight.

I think I am off to take a shower to try and calm myself down. I don't like feeling so despondent. It's not like I won't see her again!!!