Dealing with Changes

This person is not so good with changes... Especially forcibly introduced changes. NOT GOOD.

Last night I had a breakdown over this new diagnosis.

I had become very comfortable in my pregnancy diet. It was not perfect, but for once in my adult life I was eating without tons of guilt. I still worried from time to time about putting on too much weight or not getting the right vitamins- but overall my weight gain, fundal height, and my blood pressure were picture perfect.

Now I am heading into a dark place. That place that with every bite reminds me "I am not normal."

Additionally, I have not heard from the diabetic center yet, so I am finding my way through this in the dark. Everyday my blood sugar is out of control is a day that my kid will gain more weight than she should, and that puts us both at risk.

So until I hear from the diabetic center, I am attempting to eat like I was asked to eat before my glucose testing. No refined sugar, no potatoes/rice/white bread/pasta. Fruit is ok, just balance it with protein. More veggies and protein (not my favorites- HAHA)

I guess it is just time to make friends with some new foods and perhaps it is in my best interest to clean out my cabinets of the things that will tempt me.

Once I get past the temper-tantruming part of my process, things should look up... And every time the squiggle kicks me, I remember I am doing this for her more than anyone. There is nothing more important to me than making her life the best it can be.

So this mamma just has to suck-it-up. Someday I will get better at going with the flow...