This post brought to you by Lorazepam

Yesterday while I was taking a rest I was able to really bond and connect with Jovie. I just stared at her and let my heart feel that overwhelming feeling of joy that comes when you fall in love. I just have not had the time to really allow myself to feel those feelings... Not only was it a time issue, but a hormone/brain chemical issue as well.

Which is why I would like to thank Ativan (or more realistically the generic version Lorazepam) for allowing me to have clarity of mind and heart.

This calm and clarity has also made dealing with Mina's molar teething tolerable. She is definitely in pain and at times needs my full attention, and that was all-but-impossible when my body was in knots from anxiety and panic and my brain was going 1 million miles an hour.

While I am not fond of the almost daily panic and having to take a strong medication nearly everyday, I am so thankful that I have the help. I had hoped at this point that things would be more regulated on their own- but again, at least there is help for me.